Mar 02

a deeply-seeded emotion.

Hello. Hola. Konichiwa.

First off, let me say this: I feel terrible. Awful. Disgusting. Though not quite to miserable. So, I guess that’s positive.

But my week has been awful. I mean… just loads of annoying shit in my way. It’s as if people were desperately trying to annoy me. If you were, then good for you, have a trophy.

I’d love it if just one really great thing happened to me.

No, scratch that, one good thing to happen to me. But yet, no one has stepped out of their way just to fill my day with sunshine. (Not a plead.) And it really hurts, because I’m consistently trying to do acts of kindness to everyone, yet no one seems truly thankful or frankly even GIVES a fuck. I don’t need to be rewarded for my actions, but I had hoped that for once, the karma train would stop at my station, if you catch my drift. I don’t know. Perhaps the good thing is coming… I just haven’t been graced with it quite yet.

This isn’t my way of saying that I’m done giving.

That’s contrary to my conscience.

But I am saying that if someone would just step out of their way for once, and do something that would really make me smile, I just might have faith in people again.

But until then… my heart rests under an idyllic cherry tree, waiting to be captured by a spirit more luminous than me.

In conclusion (if you couldn’t be bothered to read all of that): Do something that will make someone smile. You don’t know how badly they might need it.